So for whatever reason, I ended up opening up my mouth a little too much, and got myself fixing the artwork that I normally do from scratch for my freelance job. Which would normally be a good thing, but the bad part is I have one day to do the artwork that I normally have weeks to do. So, yay! Lucky me, NOT! Oh, and did I mention that this artwork I’m supposed to be fixing isn’t coming in the emails that she keeps sending me.
Crap, my daughter just came in the room and started humming the one song that gets caught in my head, and now I’ll be singing it for the rest of the night! Curses to her! Curses!
I’m sitting on the back porch enjoying the sun, I’ve shut the backdoor so I don’t have to hear my moms tv, and I can just enjoy the sounds of nature, and what happens? The neighbors come out with some loud weird sounding machine. This my friends is the sound of nature 2013!
Well, my mom and I got into it pretty bad today, hurtful words were said, and I was thrown into a very dark place. I was feeling horrible about where my life was. It’s kind of messed up, but having the bombing in Boston sort of threw things in context, but also, just getting so mad that I had to find all the right words to confront her. I did so, and I don’t know if it will ever change things or make a difference. But I feel better, and I feel better about myself. The Me I was would have brooded about it and just stayed down and sad. The Me I’ve become, the Me I’ve worked at this last year and a half stands up for herself. She doesn’t let people talk to her like that without giving them a piece of her mind. Even if I have to step away to cool off and find my words. I don’t want to be that push over any longer. I am a stronger and more confident woman, and I’ve worked really hard to get here and be where I am in life. And I’m only going to be stronger and better.